Have I mentioned how much I love my Ipod?

Well actually not so much the Ipod as Itunes...

Having all my favourite music - 3.3 days of it at the last count on my PC is just fantastic

And setting it to shuffle while I surf the internet, write, read or play stupid games is so soothing...

I love the suprise factor - almost every song is good and the occasional stupid song can be quickly deleted

Last three were Cocteau Twins, Zero 7 and then The Cure - now Radiohead Street Spirit has just started... I think it is the suprise of the unfamilair combined with the love of the songs that captures my imagination...

I'm also always aware with the radio of what song this is or where it is or why they're playing it - this relieves me of that constant thought process...

Well done Apple!

Ok... for the last few days I've been wrestling with a whole load of thoughts...

Well actually for the last couple of weeks...

And, tonight I had one of those flashes of intuition that is so awful it can only be true...

I've been puzzling over a sequence of events - of conversations and interactions that just seemd out of kilter - stuff that didn't match and wouldn't rest in my head...

I put it down to paranoia - too much thinking time... I blamed myself - told myself I'm overly emotional and too shallow at the same time...

But it wouldn't go away...

Things happened that were not logically consistent - made worse by the last part of the sequence...

So I started to think back - work through behavioural patterns - had this happened before? what was the sequence the last time this person was in a similar situation?

And - boom!

Yep, it all clicked together - the pieces that seemed wrong actually fitted perfectly - the choice of words - the use of the word "guilty" it all fell into place

Damn

Damn

Damn

So, it was wrong - I was right - it could have been even more painful

And I feel like a fool

And I am so angry

And it is so over...

That in its own way is healing...

Some of the noise stops... I can hear the wind and the rain again...

Morning all...

Still haven't finalised my rant... coming soon though...

Phew...

Not hungover today... had some glasses of wine... but sensibly stopped drinking before it all got messy...

In fact, last night I left Dublin and travelled deep into the heart of Kildare... anyway, I'm back now...

Tempted to rant about three things that are on my mind... but I have stuff to do - so maybe later